I downloaded ntl netguard the other day. Ooh, I thought, free virus scanner and firewall, gotta be good. This morning it took me two hours to get into my damn computer, which I only managed to do after restoring it to how it was two weeks ago. I didn't even that I could do that, never mind how to do it. I could get in in safe mode - which is fucking annoying, no internet access (so I couldn't get to Dell's site to ask them what the problem was or to get the number for their tech support to ask them there) and even better I couldn't uninstall or disable netguard in safe mode.

The wordless, formless fury that escaped me needs no description. It was red.

The moral of the story is, ntl suck. I thought they might actually be improving suddenly with this. This is what I look like when I'm being stupid.

I'm also being pissed off and upset for many and various reasons which I need to talk to Gray about. I can't change what will happen, I don't even know yet what will happen, but I can worry about it until it happens. And see if I care if it's unhealthy.

I'm gonna watch Lost and hang out laundry. And look at job vacancies. I wish I knew what was going to happen.